Sometimes I don't feel as if I'm an artist.

My friends don't really recognise me as one.
Sometimes they talk about artist related things and laugh and they pay attention to each other's drawings, but I feel like when I draw it's a little like "Oh that's nice," and I don't really get noticed. So, it puts me off. I don't like to draw because I don't feel like anyone cares.

But then I'm reminded of YT - where the census there is
"You do it for fun, not fame."

But in the same way that on YT I'd like people to notice me for writing English lyrics.
I'd like someone to go "This is good, I like the... but I dislike the..."

I don't like draw because it makes me feel as if I'm trying to be someone I'm not.
I mean... I like to draw, but every time I do, it's like I'm just trying to fit in.